Haha, feels good, but my eyes are swollen and I apparently look high according to my doctor. It was terrible earlier because then I couldn’t see a damn thing, but now I can see pretty much everything, the only thing that’s still hard to see is the screen (on my phone). I feel sorry for those that I’ve been texting with today, probably looks like drunk texts. Sorry guys!
I look up to the sky and see red for the cancer, red for the wealthy, red for the drink that’s mixed with suicide. You’re changing me. Please, won’t you push me for the last time. I scream until there’s nothing left. So sick of bleeding I don’t want this anymore. There’s no use, no fucking point. It wouldn’t matter anyway. Because enough is enough, we’re done. You told me think about it. Well I did, now I don’t wanna feel a thing anymore. I’m tired of begging for the things that I want. Im over sleeping like a dog on the floor.
No school today, instead I’m going to my optician where they’ll check my eyes and so on. They’ll also give my eyes some sort of liquid, which will make me almost blind at least I won’t be able to see clearly for the upcoming 24 hours. Which means that I won’t be blogging (obviously, sort of hard to do when you don’t see anything?!). Well I’ll be back tomorrow, maybe earlier (hopefully).
Time flies by when I look you in the eyes and it feels so right for the first time for the first time I feel alive when I’m standing by your side I know that I’m not just trying to survive you’re keeping me alive
Sorry you’re not a winner
With the air so cold and a mind so bitter
What have you got to lose
But false intentions and a life so pretentious?